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!SECRETS!
She stand before the mirror and looks into the glass
The make-up that she wears hide secrets from the past
The way she'd been abused is why she cant decide
Should she end it all now or keep it all inside
She see's the pictures in her mind the worst is saved for last
She looks down at her fisted hand as it thrust through the glass
*!The secret left untold!*
Tears can come from joy, pain, and fears
Pain is the reason for my tears,
wondering who i am, and what i wanna do
wondering if my dreams will ever come true
i sit alone n my room and cry
feelin scared and lonley and very shy
hiding from al my feelings that i feel
wanting them to be a dream, but they r real.
I hold my feelings deep within my heart
in hopes that they will dript apart
apart from me and into the sky
so i will never again cry.
I dont like feeling in this harsh way
dreaming of being happy one day
but untill i am, my feelings lay in my soul. and that is the secret left untold
*!Not worth it any more!*
I am nothing,
I can tell.
My life is nothing,
Like an empty hell.
No one wants me,
U dont have to tell me.
Deep in your eyes,
I can see.
I am not worth,
Your petty lies.
Listening to,
Your ruthless crys.
I just dont care,
Anymore.
So go ahead,
Beat me to the floor.
Dont waste your time,
Spending on me,
Ignore me like,
A dying tree.
If you see me,
Take a quick look,
Turn your head away
Treat me like a worthless book
Now the time has come,
To tell you how i feel.
I will not take your bullshit.
And im being for-real.
Whats the point?
Whats the point of trying,
When all you do is wrong?
Whats the point of crying,
When no one hears your song?
Whats the point of love?
When nothing goes your way.
Whats the point of effort?
When you cant take anouther day.
Ehats the point of memories?
They all will fade away.
Whats the point of sensitivity?
You'll just be called gay.
Whats the point of happiness?
When it last a short time.
Whats the point of saddness?
It will just ruin your life.
Whats the point of seeing?
When everythings a lie.
Whats the point of believeing?
When all you ask is why
~!Aunt Stacie!~
Im feeling nothingness inside,
Always sad, Never pride,
Now your gone,
Nothin i can do,
But pray and wish and plead
for you!
On that lonley day,
That you pased away,
On auguste the 29th of 2003
You were on your way to come and see me!
I cant believe this happened'
To you especially.
You helped me through my troubled Years
Silently, i cryed no tears.
I miss you so much,
I wish i could say
But your now your dead
Lying in your grave.
Please come back,
Is what i Say in my dreams,
Your were my whipped,
I was your cream.
I want you back home.
I miss you so much.
SO SO SO MUCH.
so ill will send this to you.
On this very day.
I hope it reaches heaven
Reaches the golden gates.
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Riddle
It comes when not needed,
Then flees when it does.
Makes a grande entrance,
Then leaves with a kiss.
It starts off simple,
Then quickly unfolds,
Its the worst thing to happen,
To others im told.
It can either be the wind,
That allows you to soar,
Or the hungry inside you,
That begs you for more.
The light of your life,
Or the darkness of death
You wont soon forget,
It fliys like a butterfly
n stings like a shot
Leave when you beckon it
and comes when said to stop.
The monster we call LOVE
What if
What if i had went to sleep
But never again awoke?
What if i applied for a loan
would i be revoked?
What if i was born green
would You love me still?
What if i caught a cold
then quickly became very ill?
What if i was homless
would you even care?
What if i was born with three arms
would u sit and stare?
What if i had cancer
tell me this one answer..
What if i was to die
Would you even cry?
The girl who lives in me
There is a girl
who lives in me
who lives in peace
not reality
she sees the world
in many ways
but the negative thoughts
like to stay
it haunts her
while she tries to sleep
thats why at night
she constantly weeps
she cant be sad
not one more day
she just wants the thoughts
to go away
she dont want to always hide
from the feelings that she feels inside
she wants to be happy just one single day
but once it comes,it will only fade away
Missing you
This is dedicated to my Grandma erb rest in peace
I sit here thinkin bout my past
thinkin of good times man that was a blast
but now ur gone n
theres nuttin i can do
everyonce in a while i pray wishing to see u
You were my strength
you were my pride
but u had to change, change ur side
you were there for me
throught the good and the bad
you were my world, you were all that i had
i loved you dear,
so deeply true but always remember,
I'll always miss you
ALCOHOL
15 Minutes of a high,
a life time full of shame
nothing is the cause,
but hes the one to blaim.
the 15 % of alcohol,
keeps him drunk fer a lil while
but once the high has worn down,
can he keep a smile?
the beer keeps flowing
while the belly starts a growin
the anger starts to rise
while she sits and crys
the fighting begins to start
then ends up wit 2 broken hearts.
the heart begins to race
while the tears roll down her face
silence enters the room
then she gets beaten bruitly with a broom
Never again will this happen,
never again will he cause her strife
never again will he see her
bcuz he has taken her life.
Now she is gone
No more tears shall fall
Bcuz of that lunatic,
who abused the alcohol
I WANA LEAVE
I wanna leave now n never come back,
Just take me now, no need to pack
Im tired of trying
Im tired of crying
I wanna leave now
To live like this i no longer no how
Take me far away
where the birds sing & da children play
somebody please take my life
so i can leave this world and strife
lord come lead me to heaven i need a guide
or i'll go to hell commiting suicied!
Wall
for all my life i couldnt love
rejection was my fear,
so i built and wall beyond myself
n let no one come near
no one managed to penetrate,
the walls became so thick,
but slowly you managed to take it down,
brick by heavy brick
The guy who stole my life
the guy who stole my life,
also stole my virginity
he took more than that,
he kidnapped my dignity
He put me throught yrs of shame
Caused me so much pain
He hid me from the light
But today i stand tall, cuz i have won the fight.
Never again will i cry,
Never again will i wonder y
he may have stole my life,
But he didnt steal my pride.
Betrayal
Heart and body
mind n soal
betrayal is your bitter goal
i let u in
to keep it out
untill u made me twist and shout
the pain comes back
with sobs and tears
crushin hopes and building fears
i no the truth
its n ur eyes
all your words
all ur lies
whats my crime?
whats my fear?
u crushed my soul to be with her.
Something
Something must b wrong wit me
with all this hurt inside
always bursting with anger
and never any pride.
Something must b wrong wit me,
if my emotions like to run wild
all the confusion does
is make me feel like a lost child
sumthin must b wrong wit me
when all these terrible things
always here and never gone,
depression is what it brings
Sumthin must b wrong wit me
if i cant stop these thought
all this pain does
is turn my stomach into knots
sumthin is truly wrons wit me
when i think there no way out,
"let this pain end"
is all my heart will shout
If you love them
If you love them,
Y not say?
Y juss watch them day by day
How can hi!
Turn into omigod, I LOVE YOU!
Is there juss something
thats makes your heart sing?
for them anything you would pay,
So how come you wont say?
Darkness
dont close ur eyes
you'll b mystified
you'll b entranced by the lies
all of ur thought there will die
not for a moment
nor minute or hour
if u cole ur eyes
u'll die to its power
darkness will find u
enclse usourond u
and lastly it will show u
its emptiness, nothinness, pointless, less
Darkness will waste you
moments will eat you
Your dreams wont come true
look at myslef, ive been eaten away at
like a pile of dust, i can say that.
Hypocrites
Ive got and Idea!
Lets jump to comclusions!
when we dont even realize,
were lost n confusion
Were all about freedom,
were free speache minions,
we preach acceptance
but hate your opinions
we judge them b4
we c what there about
talk not with our heads,
but only out of our mouth
we say you should stand up
while we only sit,
were stupid dumb fuckin
hypocrites
Respect our opinions,
we dont respect urs,
were not the least bit consistant
when choosing our wars
when you say what you feel
we must throw our fits
cuz wre the dumb fuckin
Hypocrites
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